I love to read political suspense novels.  David Baldacci especially.  Somtimes I read them and ponder the behind-the-scenes workings of our domestic political stage as well as the global political stage and I am compelled to wonder at all the wheeling and dealing that is being done right now for the future of our country and our world.  Often I wonder if I could work inside that realm.  Wheeling and dealing and building agreements and treatises and truces and helping get the 'right' people into whatever office interests me.  I am certain I couldn't handle the constant tension and stress of being an actual spy of any sort, however, I do wonder if I could be a peacekeeper of some sort.  Will I ever pursue that in any way other than to post here and on facebook?  probably not.

 

One of my favorite movies is a favorite because when one of the main characters finally gets her stuff together and truly pursues her dreams she ends up working for Amnesty International.  I have looked for jobs on the UN website and various other global aid organizations as well as NPOs.  I even printed off an application or two.  Will I ever fill one out and make a tangible impact on the state of humanity on this planet?  probably not.

 

My mom informed me last night that I need to quit my job.  That suddenly and that randomly.  Made me stop dead in the middle of the living room and stare at her because I was certain I had heard her wrong or she hadn't finished her thought yet.  She followed it up by telling me I need to be in the computer field somehow.  She had a problem with something she's working on for her work and "knew" I could solve it for her.  When I didn't have an immediate answer she thought maybe she'd finally stumped me.  However, I googled the problem and got her an answer and impressed her immensely yet again.  She asked if I had ever thought about going back to school.  Yes, I have.  I've even printed off brochures.  And asked good friends who work in computers what their suggestions would be for what specificity to pursue.  Will I ever put money down to pursue that idea?  probably not.

 

I have dreamt, at length, about marrying a very rich singer or actor.  A few reasons.  I would be a very good celebrity girlfriend/wife.  If you're a jerk, I'm not going to stick around just 'cause you're rich.  I'll still bolt ... after I get a car and maybe some jewelry.  Also, I'm not all about the spotlight, but I'm not opposed to it either.  I'm very down-to-earth and would likely help keep you grounded.  Also, I would happily sign a pre-nup.  As long as the pre-nup states that if there is any form of proof that you have or are cheating on me that I still get an incredible amount of money for you turning out to be a jerk in the end.  I've considered Danny from CSI:NY, Richard Alpert from LOST (although he may be a tad old), Nick Stokes from CSI, Booth from Bones, or the other geeky guy from Bones, or even some of the BIG names.  I have an ongoing wish for Kenny Chesney.  Will any of these ever happen?  probably not.

 

I have considered becoming a hair dresser.  Opening a $1.00 movie theater.  Moving into a Seniors Apartment complex and asking for discounted rent for plannin various activities for the resients.  I have looked into buying a Curves for Women franchise.  I have done direct sales.  I have considered creating a niche business for myself in organizing people's homes and offices. I have also considered a niche business of helping (older) people learn how to use technology to its fullest, helping them set up cell phones and emails and learning the programs on their computer as well as the plethora of fun to be had on the interwebs. I have thought about independently doing administrative work for Direct Sales managers etc in my area. Will I ever pursue any of these?  probably not.

 

I'm a dreamer.  It's what I do.  I'm even reasonably good at dreaming for other people.  Now if there were some way to get people to pay me to dream for them and then give them their fantastic idea to go and make millions at ... THAT i could possibly be very very good at.  Why won't I ever pursue any of this?  I don't really have the drive.  When the rubber hits the road and it's ti eto actually (gasp) *work* then I'm no longer interested and all the best parts of the dream are gone and all I am left with are the drawbacks.  Typicaly I don't mind the loss of the dream.  The $1.00 movie theater idea was birthed because there was an abandoned theater here in town,that dream has died because some jerk decided to tear it down and build something really depressing, like a Baby Gap. (not really, that's a movie line, 2 points if you can name the movie), but he has torn it down.  So, clearly, I can't open a $1.00 theater in that location.  And I am TOTALLY not a build it from scratch kind of girl. So, I drive around and make up these grand schemes and then someone tears down the theater and I move on to the next.  maybe one of these days I'll be able to make it stick.  Or I'll get married to someone incredibly wealthy and won't have to wish for a life that is not ruled by someone else's alarm clock.